The year 2011

So...year 2011 is coming to an end and time flies really fast. Many things happening this year, and I am completely happy with things that has been going on in my life. Indeed I cannot thank God more with the things that he has bless me with, my job, my family and my friends.

The greatest life-changing moment for me was when I gave birth to a beautiful little angel, Rowena. Having her in my arms just changes me, although the worse part of the year was being confined for 30 days. Haha. However, having a little daughter just filled my life with joy and laughter. Being a mother is the best gift ever!!

I had a great birthday celebration this year...turning 30 isn't bad at all. It makes me even younger at heart. With friends and families stuffing me with birthday cake and yummy food for two weeks, those moments were just precious to me.

I believe 2011 has also changed me from within. I felt that I'm a more reasonable person now, who accepts criticism as good thing to improve myself. I have put many things in the past as the past and starting over a new leaf. I have made things clear with those whom I have hurt, and I am thankful that God allow us to reconcile.

I didn't give up on working out too. I know sometimes I make all sorts of lame excuses not to workout and the best excuse I always gave was...I want to see my daughter so badly after work. It works not to go back home first, and after working out, I'll go back and see my little angel. Although I'm not losing much pounds, but I felt healthier, more alert and energetic person.

Nothing has been really bad personally for this year, except for the torturous 30 days confinement period, juggling with my post-natal depression. I remembered I don't seem to trust anyone to take care of my daughter and I just cannot leave her out of sight. Pfft...yea, talking about being a mother. That's how protective our mom towards us huh? Hehehe.

However, things weren't as good in the office, with the new transition in place, change management, workload is piling up and when you get things done, we felt that our hardwork is not being appreciated and some people could easy earn SRA for doing nothing (seriously, this person said he does nothing to earn the SRA) and when some of us work our ass off, we don't get anything...most of us just felt demotivated but we just do our work because it's our job. I hope 2012 is going to be a better year in the office, with my window opening up soon...I just hope and pray hard that I can move on doing a different role, in a different office, different location. Fingers crossed.

Next, is my ministry. I have stopped being in the choir ever since I get out of breath singing (yeap, that's when I was pregnant). I slow down in the youth ministry since I'm no longer in the committee, then having a baby...but I still join them if there's a gathering. :) One of the best moment with God in the ministry was during the Gempuru Besai Raban Kristian Jako Iban (I hope I get that right), I was asked to be part of the worship team. Praise God for this opportunity. I miss those times when we used to have practices almost every week and lead the Sunday worship, and I really miss worship team too - Bremmer, Daniel, Malcom, Alvin, Roger, Susan, Evonne, Magdalene and Audrey. Gosh, it's time for a come back and the "plus ministry" as how we call also it must start in 2012. It's also time to be back in the choir again. It's time to revive the music ministry again. I'm all excited!! Woohhooo!!

Oh well, I think it's time to stop. Enough of my rants. I miss my parents, and I pray that the Lord will bless them even more during this trip. Till then. God bless.