Understand

It's rather quite disappointing when sometimes some people just couldn't accept "NO" as an answer. When I say "NO", I have my reasons. As some of you who knows me personally, I'm pretty much swollen with water and carrying a lot of excess weight now...in fact, I am just counting the days to my delivery. Those who experienced pregnancy before, the last month would be the toughest, the heaviest, the most anxious and a lot of things to prepare especially for the mother - confinement time.

I consulted some experienced mothers, confinement ladies on what I should do and should not do during the 30-days period. Many shared their tips, and some are kind enough to share what to anticipate especially after having a baby - especially the first child. Some experienced post-natal depression, the expected sleepless nights, and many other things. Having all this in mind - I just have to be prepared both emotionally and physically..and it's not easy I must say. I need the support.

So...I just wish that person would understand why I have to say "NO". I just can't. I am having a different priority at this very moment and I know I won't be able to cope. That person may not understand because that person hasn't gone through what I am going through. I have a house to take care of - and I don't have a maid (that person has a house but has someone doing all the chores). Doing the dishes, laundry, ironing, cooking, sweeping, etc...I have a husband to care too - yes, he needs me (that person is not married, thus no wife/husband that needs the TLC and explains the next few statement) ! I'm 9 months pregnant now...self-explanatory. I'll be confined (thus the term confinement) for a solid 30-days, no tv, no reading, a complete rest. I will need to adapt to a new life being a mother, anticipating the sleepless nights and many other things. I'm sure it takes time to adjust especially for a first time mother like me. That's just part of the "personal" me. Not forgetting the workload dumped on my plate - especially being away for 90-days, i've got to ensure that I can complete as many task as possible, and on the monthly task - a complete and comprehensive handover to the various people that will relieve me.

Sigh.

Anyway, enough of that. Not a good sight actually.

Pregnancy update!! My check-up with Dr. Roland would be on weekly basis now. He needs to monitor me and the baby and I'm always very excited to know the growth of the baby. This week check up I will need to check if the baby has engaged...woohooo!! Counting the days - it's getting nearer and nearer each day. So anxious!! I can't wait to hold my little angel in my arms....

Next is to firm up my little girl's name. Yes, the doctor is very much confident that my little angel would be a girl. So Frankie and I have decided that he will pick our little girl's name and I will decide on her middle name. Maybe my Melanau grandmother's name (dad's mom) would be great...lets see how it fits.

My sister is super excited too...when she arrived Kuching she texted me about how cute all the babies clothes were. Well, I believe the whole family is excited for her arrival - the first grand-daughter, first great-grand-daughter, and the first niece in the Augustine's family. Even my little brother kept asking me, "when are you going to give birth??" Haha..

Anyway, that's all for now. I've so many things to be excited about but I won't share it now. I'll slowly reveal it one by one as the day and time passes by. Hehehe...